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Matt Smith, 11th Doctor, Doctor Who Series, BBC Picture from https://esunanecesidad.files.wordpress.com/2015/03/mattsmith4.jpg One of the greatest monologues that I have ever heard was that which was spoken by the 11th Doctor on the British TV show "Doctor Who," played by Matt Smith. The quote in question is when the 11th Doctor is about to regenerate into the 12th Doctor (for those who have never seen the show but plan to, consider this a spoiler... sorry). The monologue goes like this: "We all change. When you think about it, we're all different people all through our lives. And that's okay. You've got to keep moving so long as you remember the people that you used to be. I will not forget one line of this. Not one day. I swear. I will always remember when The Doctor was me." Now obviously this is Matt saying good bye to the show, letting all those on the set and watching the show know that he was very happy to play such an iconic character....

So… It’s been a bit. And, if you have not read these before, hello. How are you? Hope you are doing well. If you have not yet, I strongly encourage reading the posts titled “The Super Hero and Failman.” It will help you understand this particular post a little bit more. So, without further adieu, I need to get on with it. I feel the need to explain those posts from a non-dramatized, real-world view. I need to kind of put myself out there, in hopes to help others, as I try to do with any of my posts, as well as give myself a little therapy. A lot has happened, during and since that little story. To protect the innocent, what I will say is that there has been a bit of family drama in my life, and there was an event that happened, which I give a glimpse of in the first Failman post, that shook me to my core and broke me. I had a nervous breakdown. I was like a china shop that was destroyed in the worst hurricane ever known in human history. I had never felt so broken and useless. ...

Failman, not sure what to do, took a step back to get just outside of the demon’s reach, and watched what was unfolding before his eyes. The Mind’s Eye, the place where all thought occurred in this vessel, was overwhelmed with a blinding light. From that light came a being, a being that seemed to be the source of the light, as Failman could not look upon the being as the light that surrounded it was brighter than the brightest stars all combined into one. The being stepped into the Mind’s Eye, and has its feet graced the land with its presence, the whole of the land was wiped clean. All that was left was the demon, Failman, and the being of light. The being walked forward toward the demon, who was still unable to understand how this was all happening. The being stood before the demon and stared with piercing eyes at him. The demon cowered under the weight of the gaze. “You shall exist here no more,” the beaing said, his voice echoing through the expanse that was the Mind’s Eye. “Retu...

So today I celebrate my birthday. If you are thinking “Congratulations on another year complete,” I’d say thank you very much. If you are thinking “Why should I care,” I’d say, “Yeah, I get it, but there is a reason. Just keep reading.” I am not much for the big fanfare that some like for birthdays; I don’t do surprise parties (too sleuth-y for that), I don’t do the big parties (too poor and shy for those), and I don’t typically ask for presents either. Admittedly, I like to treat my birthday as any other day should be treated, and just do what I normally would do, unless I feel the need to take the day from work and take care of some personal business. I do try, however, to make some sport of it for my wife and daughter, especially since my wife likes her birthday and my daughter is, well, still young enough to want to have fun on her birthday. If it wasn’t for them, I would never celebrate it… Ever. If a birthday has to be good for something, other than the anniversary of the day s...

Quick apology to and English majors reading this. This is a one take, quick edit review before I post. The tour of mind palace now in the past, the once powerful Super Hero stares back at the palace into a specific window high on the wall on the northern wing of the palace. On the other side of the window, Failman stands stoically sipping on one of the Super Hero’s best casks of bourbon, staring back down at the Super Hero with disgust. He knows what he must do. He knows that in order to fully control the power of the mind palace and be able to access all of its rooms, he must destroy the Super Hero and take his essence. Failman knows, however, that to perform this deed he must be deliberate in his actions. Otherwise, the Super Hero will return, and Failman does not want that. Failman will be the master of the mind palace and bend it to his will. Below in the depths of the palace in a prison cell, the demon smiles. Failman takes a long enjoyable sip of his drink, and sets down t...

I’ve contemplated writing this now for a couple of months, if not my entire life. Even now, the fear of what I am about to write envelops me like a prickly blanket, its warmth compelling me not to do it. But I have been wanting to answer the questions that many who have met me have asked either out loud to others or quietly deep within their subconscious in that little space that sometimes escapes them as a part of their thoughts. What is that question? “What is with that guy?” For those who know me and read this, and are wondering what I am talking about, just know that I am about to give you a tour of the entryway into my psyche in the best way that I know how, which is in written form. For those who don’t know me and read this, I am about to give you a tour into the psyche of a tortured soul in hopes that at least one of you will use this as a lesson to avoid this trip to Hotel California, and work your ass off to find the love of yourself within yourself, and ask for the needed...

I read an interesting story recently that talked about the levels of carbon dioxide (CO2) in the air. What made it so interesting is that the story mentioned how the one station in Antarctica that measures CO2 levels in the Earth's atmosphere finally reached the level of 400 parts per million (ppm). This particular station, was the very last station in the entire world to hit this level, and it was the first time in 4 million years that the surrounding area did so. However, there was something even more interesting than that. In the story, which you can read by either clicking here or following the link at the bottom, there is a link to a YouTube video that shows just how CO2 increases in density and flows around the world. As the dead of winter kicks in, the video shows the CO2 levels at its absolute highest, becoming as what appears to be as dense as the clouds can during a rainstorm. However, keep in mind that this density is still fairly small, as it is essentially 400 milli...

I came across this quote from Thomas S. Monson: "The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it." This quote got me thinking, as of course a quote is supposed to. I began to look at my own existence, and question if I have lived it's meaning, because Star War's Qui Gon Jinn said something very similar:  "Be mindful of the living force, my young padawan, but not at the expense of the moment."  Of course, there is also YOLO, which stands for You Only Live Once.  So I looked at everything and wondered if I met the requirements. What I found in my life is that I do not I spend too much time analyzing the past events that I have done. I do this so that I can discover the mistakes that I made in my childhood, that my parents made in their lives, mistakes that my friends and mentors have made, et cetera. I as I look at this, I realize that I am only meeting two parts of this. I am learning fro...

Have you heard of the new hot play out on Broadway called "Alexander Hamilton?" If not, you should at least look into it. I was recently listening to some of the songs in the play, and one that caught my attention one fine afternoon as I was driving was the following one: What made this one song stick out to me is because I don't remember ever reading or hearing George Washington's farewell address. So, I went looking and found the actual address. I read it. What was interesting about the address was that it was less like a farewell and more like a letter from dad to the kids. Allow me to give you a quick and dirty summary, as I understood it. The first thing that George mentions is that the relationship between the North and the South is a delicate relationship that is also deeply rooted in the dependence that each has on the other. Basically the role of the North in relation to the South was to provide the industry that the South needed to sustain and advan...

When I got home from work tonight, which was 7/10/2016 at 10:30 pm Mountain Time, my original intention was to close the chapter on the day and prepare for bed. I have this routine that I try to do every night, in which I complete the normal nightly things, like brush my teeth and whatnot. I also stretch out my back to align it and change its direction, then I plan the next day. Instead, something else happened. I stepped into the shower, preparing to do the things you do when you are in the shower, as well as meditate to relax my mind from the trials and tribulations of the day. As I crossed the thresh hold of the shower, It was as though I had crossed the plane of a waterfall. Thoughts rushed into my mind about the things that have happened this passed week, like swirls and rapids rush down the fleeing river looking for lower ground to rest. Time stood still in my mind, even though it continued to flow from now into the future around me. And as each thought entered my mind I could ...

When my daughter was 5 years old, we had a discussion on power while we were heading to school. This was another chapter in a normal exchange between us, where she would ask me deep question about the world and life in general, and I would do my best explaining to her a view that could be as objective as possible. Sometimes my views were more subjective than objective, depending on the subject that we were talking about. On this particular day, it required a holistic approach, or at least the best that I could give.  The conversation started out with questions related to government. Admittedly, I have slept a few times since then, so I cannot say that I remember the conversation completely. What I do remember was that the conversation took a turn toward what power can do to people. I remember telling my daughter that great old phrase from Uncle Ben: "With great power comes great responsibility." My daughter didn't quite understand it, so I explained it.  I said, ...

There was a video recently posted of a man who went to two rallies wearing a sign that said, "Free Hugs." If you haven't seen it yet on Facebook or YouTube, take a look below: So....why the different responses? What made this happen? Consider this... First of all, I am not saying anything specific about the candidates in this blog post. Well, as much as I can that is. My opinion about the candidates really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. You can request it if you are curious in the comments. With that out of the way, let us consider a few things.  The first and probably the most obvious thing to consider is that there are a ton of variables to name here. Variables like location, temperament, time of day, individual belief systems, personal histories, location histories, just to name a few. Keeping this in mind, I don't think you want to read an in depth study that would cover all of the possible social and psychological eleme...